I used to think more about the past by far, but lately, I have been focusing more on the future, while attempting to focus on the present. I am actually enjoying planning for the future. I got a special journal that is supposed to help with that. It is a Dream book and planner that I bought years ago before I was ready to face my fears.
It asks me a lot of questions and I am attempting to really think and answer honestly, which is forcing me to think about what I really want and how to get there.
I don’t want to be stuck with too many expectations or concrete plans because I do not want to be living my life dreaming and become disappointed when or if reality doesn’t align perfectly.
It is a balance that I am trying to attain. I want to have goals and visions of where I want to be, but I also need to focus on my day to day situations. I also want to learn from the past, but no longer be chained to it.
I have come to the difficult decision that I should table my old manuscript because I am not in the same place as I was when I wrote it, and I really think I am using it as a crutch to not write anything new. I would like to get something published this year in some form. And, I don’t think that will happen if I stay fixated on that particular mess.
I think I am going to try to plot out an idea and a cast of characters and try to make something brand new. I also am going to attempt to delegate at least thirty minutes to this endeavor. We’ll see how it goes, I may even set an alarm. Make it a habit like going to the gym. Been pretty consistent about that and I am proud of that, now if I add this, and stick with it, it will be another victory for me.
The Infamous Jennisfora Strikes Again...or something like that 