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Is Your Life Today What You Pictured A Year Ago?

It is and it isn’t. If that makes any sense. A year ago I would have figured I would still be working at my current job, and live in the same place. But there was a lot of things I didn’t expect. I wouldn’t have seen me being this happy; getting back into writing; going to the gym consistently. A lot of these things I have only been doing for a couple weeks, but it still feels revolutionary in a weird way.

Usually I try to make changes around my birthday, or new years. Maybe because this seems random makes it different. I feel like I could conquer the world, if that is what I wanted to do.

I have always believed in the power of the mind. It is kind of amazing. I wasn’t that optimistic last year. I was just kind of floating through life. It feels like I woke up from a deep sleep. I have wasted a lot of time treading water, and now I want to live it all. I don’t want fear to hold me back anymore. I want to see and explore and go places. Truly live life.

Daily writing prompt
Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?
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What Skills Or Lessons Have You Learned Recently?

I have learned it isn’t too late to fulfill a goal or a dream. As long as I still breathe there is hope that I can accomplish something meaningful. I have also learned that waiting for something to happen can be a way of procrastinating or avoiding life. I need to make life happen, not waiting for it to sort itself out.

I need to create my experiences and I need to enjoy the moments I do have. There is more to life than working and eating and sleeping. I forgot how much I need companionship and good cheer. I tend to isolate myself. Not intentionally of course, just being social takes work for me. It never came naturally. I always made easier friends with animals than people.

I guess I have learned to fake it pretty well. It is a skill to make it seem like you enjoy small talk. A skill that I have used for a long time, but I think I have gotten better at it. It isn’t like I don’t care. I actually care a great deal, I am just not good at showing it at times. And, I just don’t like the informal dance of How do you do, I’m Good thing that we do over and over. I guess I wish greetings were more original or varied. I enjoy getting to know a person, I don’t enjoy a crowd. I guess I have gotten better at dealing with it though.

Daily writing prompt
What skills or lessons have you learned recently?
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What Cities Do You Want to Visit?

If price or time were not an issue, I would visit a ton of cities. I would love to go to Sicily someday. My great grandma was from there. Paloma I believe is the biggest or most known city there. I would also love to visit all the usual touristy places I suppose. Paris, London, Rome. All the old castles. I always wanted to see Dubrovnik. Medieval towns I find architecturally interesting.

My son wants to see a show in Chicago, he is going with friends but I may go just to be nearby because I am paranoid like that. I’ve been to San Antonio , and Houston, and Los Angeles, and Victoria BC. But, my travels have been pretty boring and uneventful.

It would be nice to see Europe. I haven’t been to Hawaii either. That is probably doable. Traveling anywhere right now would be cool except I can’t. The holidays is a blackout period for vacations where I work, so if I travel it will have to wait a bit. But, last few years I have been doing little mini road trips exploring Washington and Oregon. I want to revisit Canada, haven’t been there in ages. I also have Scandinavian heritage, mostly Danish, would love to go there.

All the British Isles, of course. Got English and Scottish heritage, my son has Irish and Welsh. So, would love to see everything. But, right now, I guess I will have to settle for more mundane fare. Maybe someday. Also, the French countryside would be cool. Provence. I took French in high school and college, I can still read a little. My pronunciation is atrocious though. But, I like lavender. I’m surrounded by it, I live in the Lavender capital of the us. So, might as well go where there is lavender. I actually don’t get sick of it. I like it, it reminds me of home. It grows out of the sidewalks here, I kid you not. It would be easier to answer where I don’t want to go.

I don’t want to go to someplace where there is a lot of anti us sentiment for obvious reasons. I don’t want to go someplace where I could be kidnapped or killed. But, take those places off the map and I am up for an adventure.

Daily writing prompt
What cities do you want to visit?
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Do You Ever See Wild Animals?

Yes, I do see wild animals. Mostly deer, raccoons, possums and coyotes.

Also, a lot of wild birds. We have a nearby park, a couple of them actually where you can see a lot of wild birds. We get Canadian Geese that come through part of the year although they are gone in the winter. We have wild ducks as well, and I have even seen blue heron. I also see Bald Eagles and Red Tailed Hawks on a regular basis. Basically, everyday.

I have mixed feelings about Bald Eagles because they kill a lot of chickens and people’s pets around here. People have lost dogs and cats, and the aforementioned chickens. My parents lost their rooster, he was a cute mille fleur bantam. He kept the hens safe, but didn’t really stand a chance against such a big bird of prey. They had to put a mesh roof over it to stop it from coming back.

Deer will often just jump out into traffic too so you have to be careful driving around here. And, there is a local herd of elk here that can wander occasionally and block traffic. I’m lucky there are a lot of interesting animals.

There is a game farm around here, but I have mixed feelings about that too. I don’t really enjoy watching animals pace in enclosures. Although, it is like a drive thru zoo and the buffalo will go right up to the car which is cool. Originally it was filled with retired Disney animals from Charlie the Lonesome Cougar days. So, 70’s and 80’s. They have a lot of bears and such. But, I prefer to see native wildlife that are free and in their own habitat.

Daily writing prompt
Do you ever see wild animals?
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Share Five Things You’re Good At.

Five things I am good at. I guess I am good at pretending to be more social or happy than I am. I work in customer service, and so it is kind of second nature for me to act like I am happy to see people, when in reality I’d rather be home typing on a keyboard. I’ve been doing it so long though that I don’t even have to think about it.

I am good at being on time, I plan ahead and take into account things like traffic and try to plan for the unexpected. I guess in a way I am good at planning things, making sure I have things taken care of should I need it.

I am a great reader. I used to not be when I was little because I had an overactive imagination and would just make up what I thought things said, but once I got it, I got it pretty good. I actually read faster than anyone I know. I used to think I was average, but every time I show an article to someone and we read it at the same time, I am always waiting forever for them to catch up.

I am good at drawing quick sketches, I can even do caricatures of people I know well, but I am not a professional by any means, and mostly I just do impulsive scribbles of dragons and horses and faces. But I am good at that.

I like to think writing, but honestly, I am not sure anymore. I try and I think I have improved. I do think I have some talent with ideas and presenting them in writing. And I have the imagination for it, but it is a matter of presenting it in a way that makes sense, is entertaining and is paced well. I seem to struggle with pacing, and too much information. Or I am just trying to do way too much all at once. But, I still think I am good at writing, just maybe not as good as I would like to be. Got to have goals though. I’ll get there.

Daily writing prompt
Share five things you’re good at.
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What Is One Thing You Would Change About Yourself?

Mentally, I would like to be more disciplined. It is a struggle to keep motivated sometimes. I try to not to procrastinate, but there are days where I struggle. I wish it was easier to stay focused and on task.

Physically, I’m working on it. Basically get in better shape, financially also a work in progress, but working on it. Trying to create healthy habits all around so that I feel better about where I am going and that I am getting there. So far so good. I can’t complain about too much right now. Just gotta keep it up which is the key to success. I admit to not getting much if any writing done today. And, I slipped up on the social networking on X as well.

I’ll be honest, this is going to be difficult because this is the busy season for my day job, and I can be downright exhausted at the end of the day, plus sometimes I do not get the long lunch hour I normally get. I can’t even go home for lunch. It is just starting to ramp up, but I can feel it arriving very soon. It has definitely begun. I work for a large employer who has to do with mailing packages and such. That is as specific as I am going to get because they are weird about social media and I am not representing work on here in any way, shape, or form. End of that disclaimer.

Just saying I may have quiet days coming up because it will be a challenge and a possible roadblock. I guess If I was independently wealthy and could just focus on writing that would be awesome. At least on paper.

I have found when I take a vacation with the intent of getting a bunch of writing done, that I waste a lot more time and I am a lot less productive. So, me being in charge of my schedule doesn’t seem like it would be a winner. I may be the type of person that requires a deadline or a limitation of some sort to thrive. I always did best when I turned that final paper in for college at the last minute and pulled an all-nighter to get it done. It is like the pressure is good for me, even though it can be anxiety inducing.

Daily writing prompt
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
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Time to Write — The Big Bad Bird

The crunch of brittle bones underneath her feet reminded her of where she was. The cave entrance was clammy and dark. The beam from her flashlight only traveled so far, illuminating one part of the massive wall. She could hear little skittering noises of some unknown critter running away from her obvious human footsteps. Her assistant cowered behind her slightly. She could hear his breathing and hear his steps.

“Just a little further, Wally. I know we are getting close.”

“Why does it have to stink so bad?” She shook her head and chuckled. She knew he would rather be in cozy office building or even a lab building. Anyplace with heat and light and less scurrying noises.

“Don’t worry. The blonde girl in front of you will protect you from the big bad bird.”

“Oh, whatever.” She heard him say under his breath, annoyed. He was such a child.

“Are you getting any of this? We should try to record as much as possible. Who knows when we will be allowed back.”

“The lighting is less than ideal, but I am trying.”

They ventured further in and the space got tighter. Hopefully there would be some eggshells or feather samples. A loud squawk could be heard outside suddenly. She stopped and waited. “Did you hear that, Wally?”

“Yeah. I don’t like it.”

She went against the wall slowly, motioning him to follow. She placed her fingers to her mouth in a quiet gesture. Wally followed her against the wall. She turned the flashlight off. He gasped, and she could feel his eyes on her. They held still and heard loud scratching and squawking as the bird creature entered the cave.

It seemed large, from the talon scratching although they had no light to see it. She gripped Wally’s hand, giving him a reassuring squeeze. Luckily, most birds don’t have a keen sense of smell. Although, vultures can smell decay. This creature was unknown. It was hard to say what its skills were. She made a silent prayer to God, even though it had been a while. It was an instinct to reach out to something somewhere.

She heard it scrape by its talons and heard it scrape the ground with its beak like a large chicken. Wally’s foot slipped slightly and skidded a rock which made a not so subtle noise. She heard the bird stop, and come back around slowly.

She tried to regulate her breathing to be quiet, but it was getting more difficult by the minute. It approached their wall slowly, she could hear the click clack of its talons. Her legs began to go numb from being in the same position and suddenly she dropped the flashlight.

She heard Wally scream and heard him go down. In a panic she found herself running to the cave entrance, and then felt a searing pain in her ankle, and she crashed into the bones. Then it was upon her, and she could feel the pain from the gouges until her mind completely shut down and spared her the additional pain.

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What Are Your Feelings About Eating Meat?

I have mixed feelings about eating meat. For a very long time I wouldn’t eat beef, or lamb. I still don’t eat lamb or veal. Avoiding red meat wasn’t hard, I did it as a kid. I wish I could say it was about the animals, but at the time it wasn’t. I just didn’t like steak and hamburger, and it would make me gag. Something about the gristle and fatty bits would make me retch. So, I wasn’t a fan of most meat.

The only meat I would eat consistently was turkey or chicken. We raised birds, but we didn’t usually butcher and eat our chickens. I think my mom got attached and it would’ve been like eating a pet, better to get the ones we didn’t know from the store.

But I didn’t have any ethical concerns at that age. I could easily divorce the product from the animal, especially because I didn’t do much, if any, of the cooking. Now, I can eat hamburger without retching, and so I now occasionally eat beef. I still don’t eat it everyday. But now that I am older I also hear and learn more about how the animals used for slaughter are treated.

So, now I have ethical concerns, especially with chicken. The idea of living your whole life in a small box. That is actually what inspired the Alice In Chains song “Man in the Box.” It is kind of horrific. Nowadays, I still eat mostly poultry, occasional beef. But rarely pork. But it is hard, I have to cook the chicken, and I can see what it used to be. I applaud those that can not eat meat.

I don’t eat it everyday, I like a lot of vegetarian style meals, but sometimes it is less expensive to have chicken and rice if I am feeling less than adventurous. I always say a sort of internal prayer to the meat like “I’m sorry, and I’m thankful that you gave up your life so I can eat. I hope you didn’t suffer too much.”

At least I get the eggs from my mom’s chickens which are spoiled rotten. They eat better and have more enrichment than some people. And, they die peacefully of old age when their time comes. I do think the eggs taste better for it. There isn’t any fear, there is a richer flavor, and the yolk is more orange than yellow suggesting they are getting a better diet.

If I didn’t live in the middle of town I would have chickens in a heart beat, bantams, just because they are smaller. I don’t know if I could butcher and eat them. I am a bit soft hearted like my mom. Maybe if civilization comes crashing down and I have to live like the old days I could find the inner strength to do that to survive. But, until then I will just do the best I can and be grateful for the food I do have. I try not to waste any food, because I know it can be hard to come by, and I know the animal made the ultimate sacrifice. I don’t want it to be in vain.

Daily writing prompt
What are your feelings about eating meat?